ouch!!! i BURNT my fingers today...

while trying to make some food for myself. it is DAMN DAMN PAINFUL. till i cried. haha!
now i can feel that its swollen in the inside. when i touch, damn pain and swollen.

term test is coming. and im not making much improvement.

may god bless.  ¶ 23:40

  suck my blood!! poly's kinda sucking my blood. after lab lessons, bound to be pop quiz. and you see the tutor rushing through tutorials, when there's still like half an hour left. WOOHOO. pop quiz. and this things, happen so very often. darn. lol! tomorrow's gonna have a "make known" test. biochem. i regretted not trying harder to understand DR lim. LOL! and friday's gonna have 2 "make known" tests. math and human anatomy. another blood sucking subject. i totally hate biochem and human anatomy now. its fun. yes. but it hell aint fun STUDYING for it. memorise like CRAZY. so many facts. and so many things you need to know. not understand.

im suppose to be studying. but somehow, i give up. lol! i've decided to let go biochem and HAP test this time round. and i'll definitely pay back during my weekends. and math, i'll do well. HAHA! I hope la. i hope. hope is the word. cuz.. my classmates are.. DAMN IT SMART! hahaha!

alright. i'm back to studying. @#$%&*@#  ¶ 21:41

  good son = good friend = good lover If you cannot be a good son,
you will not understand how to be a good friend.

If you cannot be a good friend,
you will not understand how to be a good lover.


so, find a guy who is a good son. HAHA!  ¶ 21:04

  HOW! Life's sooo screwed.

oh no.. oh no.. oh no..

soo vexed. how?

the realisation is kind of disturbing. gosh. oh my shen.......

but the good thing is, i told julian everything already! haha. so one thing DOWN. =))  ¶ 19:13

  OH MY GOD. hmm. where should i start? many days of NON BLOGGING. lol!

i think i should start from 30th april. the day karen and alvin got together. and the day the 5 mega tai tais to-be unites once again.

nic and han came over to my house to prepare. lol! nic being her nonsense self doing all sorts of nonsense in my house. we looked at each other change. ok. not that i looked at her. more like she DIDNT tell me she's STILL changing. and i TOLD her i am changing and she STILL HAPPILY LOOKED. what a bitch. but its ok.. since she's like one of us, we learn to accept, right chee shian! =)) at 6.45pm, nicole su can tell me she wants to sleep and yao lihan havent even reach when eilania's coming down to pick us at 7.30pm. so, at that time, we're all still not changed and made up. lol! when lihan finally came, CHAOS. lol! itomi barked at her. she scared, she screamed. then itomi got even more excited and BARKED EVEN LOUDER. AND SHE SCREAMED EVEN LOUDER. its a cycle. and endang sat at the staircase carrying itomi while she's barking. and that idiot yao lihan refused to come up to my room cuz itomi's there being CARRIED by endang.

then itomi started to be hell of a bitch barking and all. she felt that lihan wasnt friendly. lol! just because lihan didnt sayang her like nicole did. ok. start to change and all. eilania came, we practically jumped down. and yay.. we're FINALLY on our way.

reached there, we're the most elaborately dressed up kids compared to the rest. oh wells, half of them are teachers. cant expect too much. had our fun share taking pictures and GOSSIP. long time no see = TONS AND TONS of GOSSIPS. the night ended. and we were all happy and exausted.

and haiz..... my life's kinda slightly screwed up. with school work. lol! you know, its kinda the same things i'm dealing with back in jc. just that its IN DEPTH and its like slightly more difficult. ok. maybe not slightly. maybe 10 times more difficult. LOL! but i dont regret. cuz... i'm hell not dealing with PHYSICS. and i thank god for that.

and.. oh my god. bear. ok. seriously i dont know how to deal with him! he asked me AGAIN OK! alright, please dont scream everybody. the blog is the first thing i told and you people will know subsequently after reading it. i just went "err.... " and he actually got the hint and said "okok.. slowly slowly." wah lao!! oh my god! i feel like killing myself. you know, we're seeing each other so often, that i think we can beat eilania and clifford. i SWEAR. he's giving me hell a lot of attention.. but right.. i think i havent like him YET. so i dont really care the attention he is giving me. and i dont know how to like him. lol. tried to la. tried to you know talk to him etc.. but fact that he just answered my phone, and the caller was my MOTHER. really affected me man. when he's tired, he doesnt really think. thats the prob. aiya. i dont know man.. you know, i think it will take me 10 YEARS to like him. so should i not waste his time? but how to tell him? i swear i'm making use of him. lol! when i'm bored i go to him. when nobody's free, i go to him. i'm such a bitch. HOW!!! if i just get together with him, it'll turn out to be zachary II. NO WAY. i think life of a single kinda damn fun. so how. ar how?!!!! everyday except monday this week i see his face ok. EVERYDAY. let me tell you guys what happened.

mon's the wedding. so never see.

tue's labour day. we went out. nobody else was free.

wed my ez-link got confiscated by the bitch bus-driver. i had to do. so he voluteered to go do with me. and we saw kenneth at tm. HAHAHA!

thurs i had to buy my neccessities and itomi's neccessities. i just told him, he say he need to buy carrots to practise on his knife cuts. so we met.

fri, ok. this was the day that we suppose to not meet ok! but then....... i end school, went to eat at biz park with my classmates. he had break, he messaged me and asked where i was. i told him. and the next thing, he appeared. and my friends went off and i'm left with him. but he had class at 5 and it was 4.30. so.. hmmm... i went home, he went class.

sat, brother's girlfriend's birthday. had to buy present for her. after his db, he followed me. helped me carry stuffs la. and ended up helped me do the DIY box. quite of good use.

sun, aw man..... my printer no more black ink. must buy. and yay. he's going with me.


on top of that, he keeps wanting to talk on the phone with me. not that i dont want.. the past couples of day my brother in chalet and my mum in genting. so its fine. but my mum and bro both coming back today. so if he's gonna talk to me on the phone, i'll probably get killed. so maybe i should say no tonight. and forever till 10 years later.

alright. so i kinda lead a oh my god life. everyday i'm calling for god. so.. god bless me, PLEASE.  ¶ 11:47