long long one.. heys!

back! haha!! sorry ar.. was tired these few days... so didnt blog.. lol!!

a lot of things happened.. but i forgot leh.. hahahha!! let me think...

on tues, went to get MY JACKET! WAHAHAHA!! no more S!! asshole.. haha.. so i got XS, which is bloody not my size la! haha!! but i just insisted and got it.. i'm such an S (ass).. ahaha!! we laughed all the way.. i think people will think we're siao.. lol! we were walking walking.. then we heard a group of voices.. it went something like "ooo-wei.." aiya! some loud and disturbing continuous sounds.. lol! we turned around.. and all three of us went," aiya! malay boys!" WAHAHA!! racist pieces of shit.. then after a while.. we were laughing and walking like drunks.. lol! then a thought came to us that other races might turn and see us like that and tell themselves," aiya! chinese girls!" hahaha!!! ok.. i think thats not funny.. cuz even i typing it dont think its funny.. ok. next.. we heard this STUPID SONG OK!! it goes.. "say you.... say me..."

and that dumb chee shian and assie vera kept SINGING IT OK!!!!! I'M SOOO IRRITATED!!! all the way ok!! we went to giant.. they still sing sing sing.. like last year the "bao ma liu liu de shan he" sooo irritating.. i've got irritating friends.. lol!! and saw JANE SUE in giant.. hahaha!! with her boyfriend.. got to hide from her.. so siao.. haha! cuz that time she asked me to go and see her.. i didnt go.. then i never contact her.. she never contact me.. so we lost contact! hahahaha!! so vera and lania got to block me.. and they learnt the art of blocking people.. ahaha!! we took a tax.... and they continued singing.. and we all reached home.. haha!

next day...

went for dance bbq.. ya.. damn fun! hahha! like the old days,
bitching... and bitching... and more bitching... HAHAH!! why are dancers so bitchy? i dont know.. hahhaa!! guy dancers are damn bitchy too.. hahahha!! they apparently didnt buy crabsticks.. so i only ate hotdogs.. haha!! but got stingray!! wah... damn good.. hahha!! the seniors came... and we talked... and tried to work somethings out.. and lay down the ground rules for coming practices for syf.. all the best dancers.. lol! i'm quite sure she wont allow me to participate.. lol.. but i will go down and give you guys morale support! haha!! jan i free already.. haha!! took a tax back with huiying and sam.. and we bitched again.. haha!! before we left, the rest of the dancers were still bitching la.. bitch until dont want to go home.. haha!!

next day...

went to work.. then went to look for my father and brother.. lol!! booking tickets to go shanghai.. why ar.. of all places you know.. my dad says he wants to go there to see how much they have developed and eat their "dongpo meat".. thats damn sian.. haha! but nevermind!! with my talented brain, i called my brother's girlfriend to come too.. hahaha!! is play until we all DIE.. hahaha!! late in the night...... i, together with her, will kidnap my brother and throw him inside the bathtub.. and laugh at him.. we will wait till he sleeps.. and call for room service.. next morning, he sees the plates, he'll be soooo sad..... HAHAHA!!

next day...

went for ballet.. wah... is damn sad... i didnt go for one week.. and things start to change.. my ballet teacher now very emo.. cuz the performace is on the 29th dec.. and all, i mean all the dances are still not half way there.. she's damn stress.. together with my other instructors.. they start screwing us la.. keep saying we're not up to our standard.. but we've already tried our best... first time in my entire life i feel stress dancing.. i'm stressed dancing in every single piece i'm dancing in.. and i feel stress for my friends too.. haiz.. few years back.. the performace wasnt like that... we were soo prepared for it.. cuz we started damn early.. we had a lot of practice time.. and we were all very strong.. now we're all so weak la.. all of us got injuries.. both my ankles cannot make it lor.. a lot of us got ankle problems.. hemstring.. knee.. back.. hands.. i also dont know how la.. ankle problem is the worse.. is cannot wear the pointe shoe.. and our finale dance, the most important one, the most grand one and supposedly best dance for the night.. she dont let us go on pointe.. what rubbish.. lol! the whole performace is going to be like shit.. cuz we dont train as much.. then she say we're not up to our standard.. say we never put in effort.. then she still dont let us train more.. haiz.. so, i've decided not to let any of my friends go.. even my parents arent going.. lol!! thats how bad ok.. lol!! maybe when things turn better la.. then we'll see how..

on friday.. alot of my ballet friends cry.... haiz... my teacher keep threatening us.. say she'll not put this item on.. that item on.. then keep suaning us.. say we're very bad.. the thing is she doesnt scold.. she just refuse to rehearse with us.. like emo emo.. attitude problem.. then we all also dont know what to do.. then they all cry... wah.. all of us damn stressed up... when we dance.. is can tell.. cuz we very stiff.. the more stress we are.. the worse we dance.. haiz... on sat, went for ballet... i step in only, i see my friends cry.. then the instructor stand there.. also dont know how.. and see my ballet teacher with that frown on her face... haiz... and i know she must have said that she's gonna take that item that they are rehearsing for out.. lol!! just because one girl couldnt turn up.. and she's in brisbane to see her brother graduate.. and another girl have her uni exams... and a couple of rehearsals cant come.. and another got prom.. one night cannot come.. sick eh.. lol! its not that they dont want to turn up what.. and we paid for our rehearsals.. i see all my childhood friends cry.... i also feel like crying.... but i didnt want to cry.. cuz if i cry.. i sure cannot dance.. haha! and will get screwed upside down.. so i just looked away... go do some stunts.. haha.. go toilet.. lol!

i still believe that i work well under stress.. hahaha! i'm scared for the upcoming performance.. and i'm worried for my friends.. lol.. lania... dont be sad ok.. and you better dont get soo stressed and upset till depression again.. let me tell you guys a joke.. that will lighten up your day...

went out with nicole su before ballet yesterday... went tm...
she saw her friend at mos.. and i heard her shout out to her, "RETARDED!!" then i was like.. wah.. not bad ar.. call someone retarded that person still respond.. then when i asked her.. she said she didnt call her retarded.. she called her friend by her name and her friend's name is charlotte.. HAHAHA!!
when we were about to go back.. we stopped by macs.. she wanted ice cream.. so we went to buy... she bought mcflurry.. and gave that guy 2 dollars.. and i have no idea why... but she stood there like an idiot stretching out her hand to the counter guy asking back for change when the mcflurry is 2 dollars.. the scene is damn idiotic.. you imagine nicole su.. standing there.. with her hands stretched out looking at the guy.. with the eyes of " give me back my change you ass.." and that guy actually counted 8 dollars.. thinking that she gave him 10 bucks.. wah biang.. i laugh until i cannot tahan.. and her face was damn bloody red.. hahahahhaha!! and she went home.. i went for ballet.. and after that was a sad day for me.. ahaha!

lania's flying today.. bon voyage.. and smile! haha!  ¶ 11:48