cramping and numb-ing... What a good exercise we had today. lol. walking around orchard. from 2.30 to 7pm. i think i put a lot of weight on my right leg. now my right ass and right thigh's aching...

Bought the nice nice von's top from f21. what a "fruitful" day..

Yesterday's audition, was like the WORSE audition i've ever had in my entire life. holy..... embarrassing... i wasnt warmed up at all. we started the dance audition without any warm ups. ryan gave us a couple of eights. and we had to freestyle two eights. and.... half way through the dumb freestyle, my dumb pea brain somehow told my dumb limbs to launch forward to do some floorwork. but my dumb limbs decided to be numb at that instant and gave way. so i landed with a "BOOOOOONG" in a split. and i tell you.............. my dumb mouth had to say "AWWWWW...."

well, everyone saw. and i swear ryan thought i wasnt serious with the audition. lol. so........ i'll probably not get in.. =(

AND I WONT BE SKINNY EVER AGAIN! =(

my legs keep cramping up and getting numb nowadays. i think i'm going to die soon. Just had this talk with maine and von the other day, about: how the world's going to end. its ending soon. so everybody, dont study!! play!! spend all the money you have! hahaha!

why the world's gonna end before we get to find a job? in my opinion, its because, i cannot picture or imagine myself in the working society. and i cannot picture myself celebrating my 30th birthday. and of course, i cannot picture myself getting married and have kids.

how i wish....... i was only 3 years old. running around like an idiot without a care in the world...


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